September 27th, 2010
For the past 3 years my Octobers have been horrible (well more then 3 actually). So I decided last night that *this* October will be a great one, I will see to it. If I go into the month down then it will indeed be a down month. So to just lay it all out, to get what goes through my head out I will type it and be done with it. For October will no longer be a month of dread.
Jason broke up with me (2002).
We got back together after 2 weeks, max (2oo2).
I joined the Church in October (2oo2).
We moved to Lubbock (2oo3).
I got pregnant with Ian (2oo3).
Jason started acting really odd (2oo7).
Told me he no longer loved me and was in love with someone else (2oo7).
Did I mention I was 37 weeks pregnant?
He moved out (2oo7).
I freaked out (2oo7).
We decided to try to make the marriage work (2oo7).
I left Boone (2oo8).
Jason and I started repairing everything that went wrong (2oo8).
Confusion of being in love still set in, big.time (I will leave it at that).
Ian had his tonsils out, which I stayed with Jason and his parents while Ian healed. It was almost like being married again, spending that much time with him on that constant of a basis threw me into some “what if” depression (2oo9).
So needless to say my Octobers have been eventful. But now that Im reading it its not so bad. lol. I am over the affair crap from the most part so yeah, October should be fine from this point on.
That and I already have a couple of big plans which I am oh so excited about.