July 25th, 2009
and screaming into the canyon that is below. The screams bounce off the canyon walls and echo back words that I have heard time and time again.
I walked away because it was again cememnted that some people will never change. People only lie to better themselves, to not have to face the truthes.
Its been a little over a year since my divorce and about 1.5 years since I have been doing this single mom thing. Crazy, I didnt realize it had been that long until dinner tonight with Ang.
I have been feeling anti people lately and I dont know why. Well not so much anti people but anti really large groups of people (like the bar). And I keep getting these really shitty headaches that wont go away. I am ready for fall to start, to go back to school (yes I am in school now but with my normal school peeps) and I need a flipping vacation! Holy poo on a stick I need a vacation.
July 19th, 2009
I think to myself a new blog. Unfortunatly I never type it up. Last January I got this url and server space intending to move my myspace blogs over. Occasionally I would work on it but after moving a few blogs over I became tired of it. I stopped blogging cause I didnt want to move even more blogs from myspace to here. I didnt post them here because I didnt want to link to the site until I had all the blogs moved over. lol. Now they are all moved. woot!
I have been going to counciling for a little over 3 months now (I think) and its helped tremendously. So much so that now I just go every 4 weeks. I have learned to better deal with the everything. Learned that its okay to be sad, to mourn, to be angry etc. I need to allow myself those feelings, for said amount of time and then move on. It was the moving on that I had a problem with.
So the 23rd will mark my 3 month single anniversary. Its a big thing for me, longest I have ever been single. And its nice, lonley at spurts but a whole lot easier on my nerves.
I am going to school in the summer, summer I was math and History II and Summer II (now) is just a math class. Also working part time with awesome people doing stuff I love. Kids are doing great (well except Ians sick again). Hopes saying new words every day and insists on her hair being done. Ians busy coloring/crafting and talk talk talking up a storm.
We have officially gotten things under control. Same routines, etc. Jason and I are doing fantastic, our co-parenting is something I think we should both be very proud of. It certainly reflects in the kids.
After reposting all the blogs I realized how much I love it and I am a little sad that I havent been doing them for the last 6 months. But from here on out I am aiming for at least weekly.
The sites not prettied up, I seem to have forgotten a great deal of my coding skills but I have a rough idea of what I want. My myspace blogs were half butt moved over so even though a comment box appears you cant leave a comment. Go down to the actual comment link for wordpress.
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