I feel like I finally have my head back .. a month a change of complete chaos. Its kinda nice.
And as you can see by the picks Boone and I are once again BUT stipulations apply. Yeah I am being a bitch but as I told him the other day, I love you but I love myself and my kids more. As in, if I start going down hill and your basically the cause, well, bye. Simple as that.
I was stressing so much over keeping him in line when, A) its not my yob and B) it always backfired. So now its back in his lap, if he wants me, truly wants me, then he is going to have to work for it.
When we were having our convo he kept noting that I seemed to forget all the good times we had. And that wasnt the truth, I remembered them but they were totally foreshadowed by the not so good times. And well, the good times he was sober and the bad times he was drunk. So how about we work on the sober and keep having the good times, right?
So no drinking at my house, when I said this he just looked at me odd because I had liquor here of my own. Liquor that I bought on the 4th and have yet to touch but he kept getting drinks of. So I poured it out, no biggie anywho. The only time I drink is usually something mixed and frozen at a restaurant.
No coming over when wasted. Thats simple.
And lastly, if out and he gets to the point of annoyingly drunk then his ass is getting left there. At most I will drive him to the theater and he can sleep on the couch. I just dont want him around me.
He didnt realize it was as bad as it was even though I was throwing major clues out they were just flying right over his head. This shook him but I dont know how long for. I did make it rather clear that I have never took anyone back (except for Jason but thats rather different) and that I will never do it again. He looses me again then he looses me.
I am sure I sound like a snotty stuck up chick but dammit I am tired of being treated like a random turd in the neighbors lawn. And besides, drinking that much isnt good for anyone.
And to topic change kind of, we went to Rocky last night. It was wonderful, wish I could see it 3 more times. lol I cant believe the amount of people that got turned away though, the crowd was huge when we pulled up at 11:20 and just kept growing.
And I enjoyed my wicked witch of the EAST costume and enjoyed that a few people got it. You would think ruby heels AND the stripped leggings would have gave it away but people kept thinking dorothy. No people, I was the witch before the house got dropped on her. To be perfectly honest I just wanted an excuse to wear the shoes. They kicked butt.
All in all Friday was great. I need to do some major cleaning tomorrow though.
Oh and incase people didnt notice, pics are up from yesterday. It was Ians first time actually doing anything for halloween. 🙂 And you can see pics of my finished tat.