Moving


I am copying all my myspace blogs here, setting everything up will take about a week.




Ahhhh….the last batch of crayons.


Its strange how being a “single” mom has been such a relief. I seem to not sweat the little things any longer, the kids are fed, bathed and shuffled off to bed with no anxiety following along. The hick ups along the way are just that and no longer bother me like they used to. Getting up numerous times during the night is just something that happens. I dont usually count when I get up and even if I do its forgotten about by the end of the day.

I have a full plate and I love it. I am happy to have taken the high road in all this and to be coming out a better person. I am happy that Jason and I still have a great friendship and co parent awesomely together. I am grateful that our kids will be able to see their parents interact like adults and not fear talking about one of us to the other. I am grateful that we can show them that sometimes things dont work out but that we can still be friends.

The 13th was the day last year, the day I woke up to my Dear Juli letter. The odd dreams that I had been having throughout my pregnancy came true. Every detail played out like it had done months and months before. Its so strange that I just knew, that I had dreamt it all along. I remember waking from my dreams a few times confused because it seemed so real. Jason would get home from school and I would tell him about them, how vivid they were, and he would just say that he would never leave me. lol

But anywho, I think the dreams prepped me for the real thing because the day it happened I was amazingly calm. I called a few girl friends, we laughed that I left Jason stranded on the side of the road. I packed the car and me and the kids headed for the yellow city.

I dont think I even cried on the trip here but its all foggy now anywho. I do remember all the fires though we when go into town.

I cried constantly once it sunk in and that went on for about a month…then Boone came along. I still grieved the loss of my husband, hell I still do, but it certainly helped having someone along for the ride.

Through all these ups and downs I can say without a doubt that I am happier now more then ever. I love my life, I love my friends and family, I love being forced into new roles. I love the challenge of playing the mom and dad, I love the rush and excitiment knowing that I can do this, that I am doing this.

I love how I went from strictly t shirts and jeans to a much more sleek look, not high fashion by any stretch of the imagination but I only have one pair of hole filled jeans now. And the sad thing is my flip flop wearing feet have now been transformed to heels pretty much on a daily basis, its so bad that not wearing heels throws me off.

I.am.awesome. And I have no qualms saying it.

But

BUT…

My kids are just as awesome. Hope does really well being shuffled about but then again its all she has ever know.

But Ian does beautifully now (for the most part) compared to when we first got here. I can now leave his side and he is okay. He helps me a lot around the house and loves his baby sister. Tonight we made heart crayons for his class at daycare, tomorrow we are making the valentines, Wednesday we are making chocolate suckers and Thursday we are making cookies. It gonna be awesome.

I booked our hotel in Dallas, its the intercontenental, should be fun.

I am in need of a vacation.

And with that I am off to bed. Woot

Cheyenne aka Mommy
You have done an amazing job. Isn’t it amazing how your life can change so swiftly in just a year? We live, we learn, we get on with life and love it. Continue to be proud of yourself because you deserve the recognition for what you have accomplished.
It would have been so easy to give up but you focused on the most important people in your life-your children and yourself!
Posted by Cheyenne aka Mommy on February 11, 2009 – Wednesday – 9:37 AM



Yay yay yay


I got my new laptop today and its even better then I expected. I love the magnetic closure, so much better then a latch. The screen isnt any more glossy then my hp is so no adjusting there. The touchpad is going to take some getting used to though since there are no buttons for it, its just one big button.

But the size, omg, its great. Of course going from a 17″ to a 15.4″ will make a difference but it actually makes a huge difference. Plus its much more lightweight.

I havent really tinkered with it because I have nothing installed on it yet but I should have a chance to get everything transferred over the weekend.

I wanted a cute sleeve to put it in so it wasnt bouncing around in the bag when I haul it to school but the one I wanted was 65 bucks which is crazy. This is the one I wanted by the way…
http://barrysfarm.net/product/monster-laptop-sleeve/

It looked easy enough to sew so I went and bought the materials today, tax and all it was 7.50. Got home and just as I was about to grab my old 15″ dell for measurements the ups guy showed up with the mac. Yay. So I took it out of the box and measured, keeping it in the plastic all the while.

So here are some pics of my cute sleeve, the sewing is no way perfect and I threw it all together in under an hour and you can tell. I didnt want to add a velcro closure like the ones on the website have, the material is fuzzy and it would get gunked up fast anywho.

The other pics are comparing the sizes of the two laptops. Please excuse the finger prints all over my hp, you cant see them usually.

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?SaRaMiChElLe?™

Sara Graves- Martinez
aweee, you gotta love a story with pictures =]! love the cover…. cute cute cute!



Its been a while


Today was packed full of stuff to do which was good because I needed my mind to be occupied. Anywho, the morning did not start to well. It would be amazing if I could not get insulted/talked down to constantly from my dad but you would think after 28 plus years I would be used to it.

To start, Ians been doing this “I will only eat what I want to eat faze”  thus not eating at daycare. But the thing is is that he eats the same stuff here, the only difference is that I usually dont eat with the kids so he gets to choose what he wants to eat.

I ask him why…
Because the apple had skin and he doesnt like skin.
Because the apple was red and not green.
Because the juice was in a white cup not a green cup.

Seriously. Spoiled, I know and I can clearly see that. But, BUT my dads answer is to make him a peanut butter and jelly sandwich every day and take it with him. But then finishes the sentence with “you should really get him to eat more stuff”. But if I point out his bad logic he has to insult me and well…Jason.

I am probably the pickest eater that anyone knows and it sucks and I HATE that part about me. I have tried the new foods thing and it did not work at all. Something about 23 years before eating something besides a grilled cheese that put a mental mind block out. I dont want my kids to go down that path and up until a couple weeks ago he ate anything put in front of him.

I know the food hasnt changed at daycare, its just that he is being a stubborn brat.

My solution, if he doesnt eat/drink at school then fine, whatever. But at home I will fix what I want to make for him and if he doesnt eat then he doesnt eat. He will eat eventually and has already made a bit of progress.

When I told my dad that he flew off the handle. I explained my reasoning but he didnt care, its all about the dammed pb&j on a daily basis. That will fix the problem, yeah right.

Then, because I guess he didnt think he had insulted me enough he had to note that he has never met another 30 pound 5 year old. I said that he should have met Jason at 5 and he said he wished he had never met him at all…right in front of Ian. :/

Funny though, he has always eaten well and yet been the same weight but now all of a sudden its a problem.

Ugh.

So I called Jason just to make sure I wasnt crazy and he agreed with me and thats all that matters.

<./ vent >

So Ian and I went shopping today for some little things all over town. Got him a cool new toothbrush holder that has a little sand timer on it as well as new toothpaste, etc. Also got a new laptop bag for my new laptop that will be here on tuesday.

Ordered a new pair of hinges (after replacing the lcd a few months ago I was really hoping to never have to open the top again) for my “old” laptop, got a nifty new skin for the new one and a keyboard cover (I know I am a dork).

Not looking forward to backing it up though and I have no idea where the restore cds are.

School is going well although being in this basic math class is killing me. Its an easy a, I just have to keep telling myself that. We learned how to measure a box on Friday…joy. And how to use a ruler, like count the spaces in the middle and not the ticks.

Saw bent last night and it was really good, also saw a few people that I hadnt seen in a month or two.

And with that I am off…night.

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Sara Graves- Martinez
sorry to hear that your support system isnt always supportive…. i think the way you are handling the situation is great though. i am glad school is going well. and it was nice to finaly hear from you… [lol] =]=]
Posted by ?SaRaMiChElLe?™ on February 1, 2009 – Sunday – 3:56 PM
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